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Last night I went to my first NA meeting in Houston. I haven't been to a meeting since... summer? Anyway it was before I got clean. I have a problem with meeting people to party with in NA. That's how I met a few drug buddies back in Ohio. Also at a meeting while I was in rehab in NY someone mentioned a specific corner in Rochester where one could buy H from their car. One of the things I like about Houston is not knowing where I could find it.... The group I went to last night, actually the second group... the first meeting I showed up at on the westside was just ending. The Houston NA page said they started at 9:30, that's what I get for trusting the internet! I liked the people there more than the people at the second meeting I went to. I kept getting hit on there. I don't handle attention from men very well... especially when it comes from old men, old crackhead men.... Good to know I'm a hottie to the crackheads! Anyway I don't really follow the steps exactly. 12 step programs are hard for atheists to follow. Seven of the steps are about God! OK some of the literature is a bit more "PC", they'll use "Higher Power" or in italics after the word God: "as we understand Him", same fucken thing to me. My first time around in the program I said my potential was my higher power. It sorta works. Realistically coffee is my higher power.... So I don't really follow the steps, I mainly go for entertainment purposes, socializing. I signed up to read my poetry at the Houston area NA talent show coming up. I want to look into a bowling league. I need things to do....

Yesterday (thanks to two pots of my higher power!) I cleaned three out of the four rooms of the apartment. I mean CLEANED!! I've never cleaned like this before. It was almost obsessive. My back and knees are sore today, and were hurting very badly last night, so I know I over did it. Organized all of Eric's guitar stuff. Lucky for me that I'm a Master-Untangler... swear he's got about 20 different cables and 10 power adapters, they were all in one big pile along with various pedals and crap. I switched the living room furniture around so that there's more open space. Vacuumed three times. Swept and mopped the kitchen and bathroom after I figured out how to put the shitty Clorox Mop-in-a-box thingy together.... Scrubbed the counters and the stove and the burners etc. We can now see the wood of the coffeetable. Did a couple loads of laundry. Made three trips to the dumpster (tossed out the bedframe). Scrubbed the bathroom counter and sink, washed out the kitty's litter pan. I nailed some picture frame hangers into the wall near the door and hung up all our coats n hats. I made a cd of the favorite songs from the new cd's I got from Eric. Took a long shower. Made tuna melt sandwiches and tomato soup for dinner. Watched the last half of Jay & Silent Bob before I left for the "9:30" meeting. There's a meeting tonight where I guess they have open mic comedy. I don't know about you but addicts/ex crackheads are DAMN funny to me. Once a month before the saturday meeting there's a potluck dinner.... I got places to go these days.

Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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