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a Nirvana moment o6.o5.o2 12:06 a.m.
in tenth grade (92) I had nothing better to do than ride around in an old Mustang, listening to the rock n roll station, playing CB tag with people in another car. CB tag is like playing hide-n-seek in cars. You hide your car and then whoever's it asks questions in a "20 Questions" kind of way and they try to find you. "Are you north of the river" etc... so ok yeah it's a stoner game, and it's small-town Ohio I didn't have many options. This is when I was first drinking and smoking weed on a regular basis. But the weed was ditch and the booze was Strawberry Hill.... anyway on this particular night there was really good music on the radio. It was 92 so there were actually good bands around. I usually can't listen to two songs in a row on the radio and even though there are stations I listen to the most, my favorite station is the one that's playing the better (or least worst) song at the time.... But this night was Soundgarden and STP and Alice and Chains... and Nirvana comes on at the climax of the night. And like so many times when I hear Nirvana, time seemed to stop, I was removed from the situation, a total understanding kicks me in the head and everyone else is just singing along, but their words are wrong and then the chorus comes and I've heard this song at least a million times and I've understood it but this time THIS TIME it's like Kurt's talking right to me, pointing out the situation I was in RIGHT THEN and the chorus hits ME "he's the one who likes all our pretty songs and he likes to sing along and he likes to shoot his gun but he knows not what it means and I say neeuuuh!" and this enlightenment hits me, that Kurt's exactly right and I'm in this car with a bunch of inbred dipshits wasting gas and time, but I hate my mom and spend as much time as I can not being at the house when she's there, and here we are, and here I am, and here they are singing along but not getting it right, not getting IT at all... and I lean back in the back seat and smile, yes I get it Kurt, I GET IT man. Always remember to quit while you're ahead. |
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