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can't sleep, deer will eat me can't sleep deer will eat me cant sleep deer will eat me
09.04.02 3:34 p.m.

when I was younger, (it was before I started kindergarten and it was winter thats all I remember...) my dad hit a deer and it rolled up the hood and came through the windshield and it wasn't dead all the way but it thrashed some and then died looking right at me and ever since I've been afraid of deer for a long time after that night I had a reoccuring dream that deer would take on human-like roles and would try to get me, there's one part of the dream I remember most vividly, where I'm in the car riding in the front feeling all safe then I turn to look at whoever's driving and its a deer and then he slashes me up. so until last night I hadn't had the dream since high school. what happened was this: I'm upstairs on the computer. Lon's downstairs hoping for a pink or avril video... I hear "Get down here, it's Dave on drums". So I run down, figuring its a Queens of the Stone Age video and right when I get into tv viewing range he yells "Fuck, dont look!" but it was too late... and you might not understand until you see the vid but its just like deer-laden and the deer look just like in my dream, and they drive cars and are generally exactly like the evil human-hating deer in my head... so I sort of flipped out in a "cant sleep clown will eat me" kind of way twitching n shit, going through my mental check list that's supposed to calm me down.... oh speaking of Dave, Foo Fighters have a fucking awesome new song. oh and here's what Daniel just said about the poem I just submitted here

"Fungus101: so much pretense. I love it, I hate it Fungus101: If I don't love it, then I'm almost a hypocrite, but if I hate it then I must be too pretentious"

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About Me
I am a bipolar genius, child abuse & addiction survivor, who is now a single mother who works 70 hours a week and has had gastric-bypass weight loss surgery a year ago. Wish me luck cuz I need it!!!

Examples of My Insanity
Dead On Mental Health Quiz
Tuna Noodle Casserole Story
Explaining Myselves
Biting Off Redneck's Finger
Got So Crazy Scratched Til I Bled
How I Found Nirvana
Leaving Lon After 7 Years
Bad Luck On 3 July 4ths
Random Craziness (FBI Please Disregard)
How I Ended Up A Junky
Almost Getting Raped by a Marine
Typical Weekend in Ohio
How Cobain Saved My Life


How long could we maintain? I wondered. How long until one of us starts raving and jabbering at this boy? What will he think then? This same lonely desert was the last known home of the Manson family; will he make that grim connection when my attorney starts screaming about bats and huge manta rays coming down on the car? If so, well, we'll just have to cut his head off and bury him somewhere, 'cause it goes without saying that we can't turn him loose. He'd report us at once to some kind of outback Nazi law enforcement agency and they'll run us down like dogs. Jesus, did I say that? Or just think it? Was I talking? Did they hear me?


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