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Lon chat
03.10.03 1:14 a.m.

interesting convo with Lon tonight. went something like this:

Jdailey1212: are you there?

ataraxiandrift: yeah

ataraxiandrift: Lon?

Jdailey1212: ya

ataraxiandrift: so jamie has a computer or did you takes yours over there or what?

Jdailey1212: ya she has one

Jdailey1212: its jami btw

ataraxiandrift: so whats been goin on?

ataraxiandrift: oh please

Jdailey1212: not much...hanging out with hot chicks

ataraxiandrift: yeah, me too

Jdailey1212: word

ataraxiandrift: I got a t shirt that says Chicks Dig Me. youd be surprised how many bi/lesbos there are when you advertise that you're one too

ataraxiandrift: so hows my brother bein a retard now?

Jdailey1212: uh...

which time?

ataraxiandrift: you said in the email that he was a retard

Jdailey1212: he is...didn't you know?

Jdailey1212: think its all that meth he smoked

ataraxiandrift: yeah but I thought maybe he did something specifically retarded

Jdailey1212: i'm sure he has

ataraxiandrift: did you ever see that homo pic I sent out at new years of him?

Jdailey1212: ya

Jdailey1212: so you getting licked all day by lesbos now?

ataraxiandrift: I wish

Jdailey1212: nice...

ataraxiandrift: I got some girls number earlier today tho

Jdailey1212: oh

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Jdailey1212: go to www.heatherstar.com

ataraxiandrift: eww shes not cute at all

Jdailey1212: she is from around bristol....danielle knows her....

ataraxiandrift: you ever check out goregasm.com?

Jdailey1212: ya shes not cute

Jdailey1212: no

ataraxiandrift: its a free porn/gore site

ataraxiandrift: with a search feature

Jdailey1212: gay

hang on

ataraxiandrift: I saw a minute long movie of some dude getting his head cut off with a big a knife

ataraxiandrift: eric almost puked it was awesome

ataraxiandrift: he just got the jagstang worked on, it totally rocks now

ataraxiandrift: we tightened the bridge down so it stays in tune now and fixed the top switch and put in a whole new pickup, its a seymore duncan cool rail. it kinda looks like the humbucker in the bottom too so it all looks really nice, and sounds way the fuck better

Jdailey1212: ya that old humbucker sucked...

ataraxiandrift: nah it wasnt that one that I replaced it was the top one the single coil thingy

Jdailey1212: k...

ataraxiandrift: the bottom one is the humbucker, it sounds better now too

Jdailey1212: ya...

ataraxiandrift: daniel is still hounding me about moving out there

Jdailey1212: wades has cute chicks that work there

Jdailey1212: youngsters

ataraxiandrift: yeah, I remember

Jdailey1212: heh

ataraxiandrift: brittany and I are talking a lot. she mails me letters all the time

ataraxiandrift: she asks me for advice on guys LOL

Jdailey1212: ya...tell her to send me some nudie shots

ataraxiandrift: she's still not 18 yet : )

Jdailey1212: oh ya

Jdailey1212: well i won't tell

ataraxiandrift: Ive been going to lots of NA meetings

ataraxiandrift: I think Im going to try to go straight edge, no weed, no nicotine or caffeine... not even aspirin... and see what my mind and body are capable of

Jdailey1212: good for you...hope you make er go...

Jdailey1212: you need to not take drugs

ataraxiandrift: eric does go with me, sometimes I wish he wouldnt cuz I cant share what I really want to sometimes when hes there but in some ways its good he goes cuz he thinks Im a freak about stuff when really its just addictive behavior that all the rest of the people have too

Jdailey1212: me on the other hand...

did some BOMB ass coke the other day...

ataraxiandrift: I've been playing basketball once a week or more and the knees have been hurting so Ive been smoking weed almost every night, but at least I fall asleep right away. I dont smoke until bout bedtime

ataraxiandrift: I never liked coke... I get that from my mania ya know...

ataraxiandrift: but at least youre not doin H so...

ataraxiandrift: how are you affording it anyway?

Jdailey1212: coke is kinda gay...but this was really good coke

ataraxiandrift: you never told me if you got your glasses fixed or not

ataraxiandrift: you can shoot coke ya know

ataraxiandrift: tho I dont know how much etc

Jdailey1212: uh...its called free coke

ataraxiandrift: but Im sure the rush would be better

ataraxiandrift: did you leave all those rigs in the top drawer of the dresser at my moms?

Jdailey1212: or you could smoke crack...imagine the rush...or you could shoot the crack...jee holybatsylllables

ataraxiandrift: well why even do a drug at all if youre not going to use it to the fullest of its potential?

Jdailey1212: uh...no...threw them out....

ataraxiandrift: good

Jdailey1212: werd

ataraxiandrift: you workin anywhere yet?

Jdailey1212: no

ataraxiandrift: how come?

Jdailey1212: cuz jobs suck...ya know...working for the man to make him richer....

ataraxiandrift: uh huh...

ataraxiandrift: they got americorps in rochester, I can get you a recommendation

Jdailey1212: oh my lord...why don';t i join a monestary while im at it

ataraxiandrift: you should. I bet theyd get your glasses fixed for you.

ataraxiandrift: I thought you wanted to start your own porn site, whatever happened to that idea?

Jdailey1212: don't worry about it...

ataraxiandrift: Im on the NA step where Im spozed to list all my character defects etc fun fun

Jdailey1212: well...on the site....hung out with the guy who will most likely be designing it last night.... he is what one would call a "geek" or a hacker...

ataraxiandrift: you got any pics yet?

Jdailey1212: no....have met alot of hot young girls tho...

ataraxiandrift: OH SHIT I think I found a pic on Anna from the haunted house. Im pretty sure its her. She musta gotten her boobs done like she was talkin about

ataraxiandrift: the pics funny cuz shes in a hot tub or pool like she was the last time I saw her naked...

Jdailey1212: on a web site? where'd you find the shot?

ataraxiandrift: on goregasm.com the whole site is run by submissions

ataraxiandrift: did you ever go look at that site?

ataraxiandrift: I can email you the pic. you remember what she looked like right?

Jdailey1212: not yet...reading some other shit right now...

ya i remember...she wasn't that hot

ataraxiandrift: well thats cuz shed just had a kid

ataraxiandrift: I saw pics of her before she ever had kids

ataraxiandrift: brb

ataraxiandrift: just emailed you the pic

Jdailey1212: k

Jdailey1212: ya...kinda looks like her

ataraxiandrift: I used to have some pics of her but I dont know where they went

ataraxiandrift: I think the haunted house still has their website up and they prolly got a pic of her somewhere

ataraxiandrift: man my tummy has been acting up all night.

ataraxiandrift: I didnt wanna smoke any weed till I was ready for bed but now I might start early

ataraxiandrift: so if youre not working what do you do all day? the same thing as at my moms?

Jdailey1212: ya...just sit around and look good...

ataraxiandrift: : )

Jdailey1212: jami cuts hair...she's good at it...

ataraxiandrift: but does she fix glasses?

ataraxiandrift: sorry bout that, cord is fucked up

Jdailey1212: huh?

ataraxiandrift: I got disconnected

ataraxiandrift: Im thinking of going back to school to be a chemical dependancy counselor

Jdailey1212: ataraxiandrift: but does she fix glasses?

Jdailey1212: i just have to get closer to see the hotties now...

ataraxiandrift: t disconnected

ataraxiandrift: I could finish that degree quicker than any other

Jdailey1212: ya

ataraxiandrift: it pays ok too

ataraxiandrift: then maybe one day I can be that cool chick who keeps rock stars off drugs

Jdailey1212: maybe...

ataraxiandrift: tho that job wouldnt really be fulfilling

ataraxiandrift: so whats the weather like up there?

Jdailey1212: cold

ataraxiandrift: its really fucked up how warm it is down here

ataraxiandrift: it messes with me all the time

ataraxiandrift: if its 80 in february, how fucken hot does it get in august? wtf

Jdailey1212: yah...actually it rained yesterday...was warmer

ataraxiandrift: I dont think its gotten below freezing here at all

ataraxiandrift: tho there were a couple mornings I wore a coat...

ataraxiandrift: I dont know what the fuck Im gonna do for summer clothes

ataraxiandrift: its sick

ataraxiandrift: hopefully I lose more weight before then

Jdailey1212: wear a big ice cube

ataraxiandrift: speakin of, whats my mom lookin like these days? have you seen her recently?

Jdailey1212: no...havent seen her

Jdailey1212: actually she was at a gas station in shortsville but i didnt see her or talk to her....

ataraxiandrift: she says shes lost almost 100 pounds

Jdailey1212: dunno...ask your brother

ataraxiandrift: yeah. hes not on much either

ataraxiandrift: hes back at pliant

Jdailey1212: he has a girlfriend...

ataraxiandrift: so when he is online its while Im at work

ataraxiandrift: yeah I know

ataraxiandrift: whats wrong with her anyway?

Jdailey1212: uh....

Jdailey1212: shes dumb and kinda nasty

ataraxiandrift: why is she dating preston

ataraxiandrift: ok thats what I figured

ataraxiandrift: is the kid half black?

Jdailey1212: and her friends are even dumber and nastier and even more annoying

Jdailey1212: no the kid isn't half black lol

ataraxiandrift: weird

ataraxiandrift: I wonder if theyve had sex yet

Jdailey1212: i guess they fuck like rabbits...lol

ataraxiandrift: or if she knows that pret's dick ring is bigger than his dick

Jdailey1212: wonder if his tongue has fallen off yet

ataraxiandrift: lol

ataraxiandrift: I swallowed the ball of my tongue ring bout a month ago

Jdailey1212: nice...

ataraxiandrift: had to go to work with half a keychain ring in my mouth

Jdailey1212: lol

ataraxiandrift: it was the weekend of the acorps convention too

Jdailey1212: your brother is to find out if amandas mom still works there

ataraxiandrift: I would leave it out most of the time but I had to put it in every hour

ataraxiandrift: did you ask him to do this yet or is this something you want me to ask him?

Jdailey1212: i asked him...but he hadn't gone there yet...so i'll find out the next time i talk to him

ataraxiandrift: yeah

ataraxiandrift: did you read the diary entry about the acorps programs Im applying to?

Jdailey1212: ya

ataraxiandrift: fucking acorps dicked me over hard this year

ataraxiandrift: but theyre dicking over about 2000 workers even harder so Im not stressin that much

Jdailey1212: that should be in their brochure

ataraxiandrift: no shit

ataraxiandrift: and they say its the toughest job you'll ever love hahahaha

ataraxiandrift: they are 2,000 scholarships short this year

Jdailey1212: thought that was the beace corb

ataraxiandrift: no thats acorps

ataraxiandrift: "beace corb" what, are ya wankin or somethin sheesh?

Jdailey1212: uhh...i have no letter that follows 'o'....

ataraxiandrift: why no P?

ataraxiandrift: you cant stick your finger in the hole?

Jdailey1212: no hole...

Jdailey1212: brb

ataraxiandrift: k

Jdailey1212: ...

ataraxiandrift: so you just sit around all day and not do anything?

Jdailey1212 signed off at 1:12:07 AM.


Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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About Me
I am a bipolar genius, child abuse & addiction survivor, who is now a single mother who works 70 hours a week and has had gastric-bypass weight loss surgery a year ago. Wish me luck cuz I need it!!!

Examples of My Insanity
Dead On Mental Health Quiz
Tuna Noodle Casserole Story
Explaining Myselves
Biting Off Redneck's Finger
Got So Crazy Scratched Til I Bled
How I Found Nirvana
Leaving Lon After 7 Years
Bad Luck On 3 July 4ths
Random Craziness (FBI Please Disregard)
How I Ended Up A Junky
Almost Getting Raped by a Marine
Typical Weekend in Ohio
How Cobain Saved My Life


How long could we maintain? I wondered. How long until one of us starts raving and jabbering at this boy? What will he think then? This same lonely desert was the last known home of the Manson family; will he make that grim connection when my attorney starts screaming about bats and huge manta rays coming down on the car? If so, well, we'll just have to cut his head off and bury him somewhere, 'cause it goes without saying that we can't turn him loose. He'd report us at once to some kind of outback Nazi law enforcement agency and they'll run us down like dogs. Jesus, did I say that? Or just think it? Was I talking? Did they hear me?


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