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I'm officially a single mom. With a barely better than minimum wage job, no college degree and no safety net of family or friends to help me out....

I wanted a family so bad. I've NEVER had one. He treated me so badly, why the fuck am I this upset? And I gave him like a million fucken chances. He wasn't even sad. He acted like it was MY fault.

internal Autopilot dialogue goes something like this:
"why are you crying, why do you even care, he didn't care about you, he hasn't said 'I love you' in almost a year, not even when your baby was born, and don't forget about him not telling you he has herpes until AFTER months of unprotected sex, only getting nervous about the baby's health -not yours-, you've wanted him gone for months" "I wanted him better, NOT gone..." "There's no such thing with drunks, there is no better, the same went for your father" "there are already too many similarities between me and my mom when she was my age, dont bring up anyfuckenmore, especially comparing Greg to my dad..." .... "why am I still afraid to sleep alone, all the abuse happened 20 years ago?" "for almost a year he hasn't slept in bed with you but coincidentally, and besides, you're not alone when I'm with you" "I need to FEEL something, I can't feel you." "But you don't want to feel anything, much less something... and don't go thinking about that which gives you the feeling of non-feeling..." "too late" "and stop hoping, hope gets you nothing but let down, go with action, action always gets you something. Go get slutty drunk at karaoke or go over to PF's and get baked, get some sleep and make a plan of action in the morning. This is a lot like Harlan, why do you always end up loving the bad ones more?" "You should know."

Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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