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This entry is short cuz my back hurts!

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This entry is short cuz my back hurts!
09.10.07 9:40 p.m.

Turns out it was me that beat up Scott that night. Well OK, both of us got beat up... but upon forensic investigation his wounds were all defensive. I didnt believe anything he said about me, like I sounded like a typical drunk, sounded like Greg or my dad... "I did not say that!" "I didnt do that!" From what I remember and what he said I did it sounds to me that he pissed me off and I started talking shit, said something REALLY "uncalled for", he choked me, then I went into PTSD mode. He said I was calling him Harlan and that I came at him with a knife. Anyway, no more whiskey. I REALLY want to never get that way again.

In the meantime I started working at a nursing home in batavia. I only make $8.75 an hour, and the benefits are totally shitty and there's no tuition reimbursement BUT it's a way laid back place to work, with a good CNA to resident ratio. Not saying that my back's not in agony by the end of the day... but it'll get better when I can buy new shoes and my feet/knees/back get used to be being used and abused like that on a daily basis. OSHA ranks being a CNA as the profession most damaging to the back. It takes me 2 hours and 2 percocets to fall asleep.


Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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About Me
I am a bipolar genius, child abuse & addiction survivor, who is now a single mother who works 70 hours a week and has had gastric-bypass weight loss surgery a year ago. Wish me luck cuz I need it!!!

Examples of My Insanity
Dead On Mental Health Quiz
Tuna Noodle Casserole Story
Explaining Myselves
Biting Off Redneck's Finger
Got So Crazy Scratched Til I Bled
How I Found Nirvana
Leaving Lon After 7 Years
Bad Luck On 3 July 4ths
Random Craziness (FBI Please Disregard)
How I Ended Up A Junky
Almost Getting Raped by a Marine
Typical Weekend in Ohio
How Cobain Saved My Life


How long could we maintain? I wondered. How long until one of us starts raving and jabbering at this boy? What will he think then? This same lonely desert was the last known home of the Manson family; will he make that grim connection when my attorney starts screaming about bats and huge manta rays coming down on the car? If so, well, we'll just have to cut his head off and bury him somewhere, 'cause it goes without saying that we can't turn him loose. He'd report us at once to some kind of outback Nazi law enforcement agency and they'll run us down like dogs. Jesus, did I say that? Or just think it? Was I talking? Did they hear me?


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