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09.07.04 8:29 p.m.

Not much time, I got a ride to work tonight cuz it's raining and they'll be here before 9.

Not many on my buddy list have updated, did everybody get a life or something? How does that work? I have off tomorrow, karaoke night, no money to get schlitzed which is a good thing cuz I feel a really bad binge coming on. Like waking up on the lawn and not my lawn bad. I need something.

I should archive my July and August entries but I'm reluctant to archive July. It's like once it's archived it's gotten rid of, and I really liked July, I dont want to get rid of it. July was like being a kid, I really never had summers as a kid, and I think this past July was what a childhood summer must have been like, not having to work yet, fucking off and playing with friends. So yeah not so childish in that I spent the month drinking and smoking and being with Geoff for those awesome three weeks, then getting fucked 12 times in a 36 hour period by psycho-twin (that averages once every three hours!) during the last week of the month. And what have I accomplished since then? Crapola. I've made about a grand to date from Tim Ho's, but all I have to show for it are a few bags of smoke and the Chappelle show dvd. "Ugh, priorities Jo." I need to get my ass in gear. I paid my tickets, and paid my mom for the plane ticket from houston, but still.

Last night was dead at work, I was able to get some training on baking. I'm not sure if Candice is back tonight or not, it'd be nice to get her energy in there, the rest of us are on the end of 5-6-7 night runs and are about to drop. I really wanna fucken go apeshit on my day off but Ill wait for the weekend, I get two days off, one to go nuts and one for recovery. Work is good though, I'm making friends with all the drunks n stoners that come in every night "Whenever you get a night off we gotta hang out!". Yeah just what I need, MORE drunk and stoned "friends".

Ride just called and they're close, must run. Note to self: Check out Ohio Court website, see how much ticket is, pay online if possible.


Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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About Me
I am a bipolar genius, child abuse & addiction survivor, who is now a single mother who works 70 hours a week and has had gastric-bypass weight loss surgery a year ago. Wish me luck cuz I need it!!!

Examples of My Insanity
Dead On Mental Health Quiz
Tuna Noodle Casserole Story
Explaining Myselves
Biting Off Redneck's Finger
Got So Crazy Scratched Til I Bled
How I Found Nirvana
Leaving Lon After 7 Years
Bad Luck On 3 July 4ths
Random Craziness (FBI Please Disregard)
How I Ended Up A Junky
Almost Getting Raped by a Marine
Typical Weekend in Ohio
How Cobain Saved My Life


How long could we maintain? I wondered. How long until one of us starts raving and jabbering at this boy? What will he think then? This same lonely desert was the last known home of the Manson family; will he make that grim connection when my attorney starts screaming about bats and huge manta rays coming down on the car? If so, well, we'll just have to cut his head off and bury him somewhere, 'cause it goes without saying that we can't turn him loose. He'd report us at once to some kind of outback Nazi law enforcement agency and they'll run us down like dogs. Jesus, did I say that? Or just think it? Was I talking? Did they hear me?


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