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Rick, the guy in toys with a crush on me, finally sorta asked me out. He mentioned something to his brother about dinner and movies, and on the same day I mentioned to his brother that we should all get together at his house (a few down from my house), rent movies, get pizza. he goes back to Rick who clarifies, saying he was thinking of actually going to the movies and getting chinese food, which is right next to the theatre. First off, I'd rather eat chinese people than chinese food, and secondly I am horribly rude at the movies. Not that I am treating this like a date or anything, but still I need friends and I dont want to scare them away too soon -although he should have been well warned of my psychosis by my myspace profile. Meanwhile the boy in pets that I have a crush on isnt keeping his job -yet they hired me on permanently so he musta done fucked up fo sho. I'll miss him. We exchanged numbers and profile addresses but still you know how that goes.

Nate, my "might as well be brother" is now a Marine. I'm quite proud of him, first off cuz he aint no fucken army loser, and also cuz he's doin something with his life. Man he was in good shape before, he's gonna be smokin now! I dont think I have any recent pics of him, just from back in middle school. He and his younger sister and me n my younger brother practically raised each other. His sister killed herself on Good Friday 2002 (all my stories have happy endings, I know) and we're not as close since Slick hung herself but I plan on keeping up with him while he's overseas. Gotta keep my boy stocked up on Reeses Cups. I know he'll be OK over there, he's as indestructible as I am.

I should be trying to sleep right now but it's fucking pointless. I might do a bubble bath though, especially since Cassidy is with baby daddy this weekend and I can actually get a bath without a two year old in there with me. To be honest I dont get enough baths. When I was doin the CNA thing living with Scott I showered twice a day. My eyes glaze over just typing his name.... anyway...

Brittney's up for a while but Im not getting much time with her. Weekends suck for right now, though they'll be getting better cuz my new assistant manager has me on the schedule M-F, so I wont be doing any doubles or TRIPLES anymore. WORD. (and that word is SLEEP lol)

I've been on a grape kick for almost a month, like I crave grape flavored things like Im pregnant or something (which Im not, just sayin it's a strong craving) and only grape things too; suckers, taffy, soda & bubble gum mostly.

Still dont know what the fuck Im doin with myself, you know like a REAL job and a REAL place to live... but I guess that's the same as it ever was. "Im useless but not for long, the future is coming on" er something like that.

Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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