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I never finish entries when I say that I will, sorry. I have just as many unfinished short stories poems novels and songs as I do diary entries so dont feel like it's just y'all gettin shafted. So a short version of the end of Jer's bday: We were at the Roost, I was hanging out at the bar first with the drunken trucker who offered me $600 for unspeakables, then after I denied him/laughed in his face he said that he still had an extra $300 to blow that night if we'd let him hang with us. So that guy was buyin drinks for a while. Then the dj played the Cha Cha Slide and I was sorta doin it a little bit at the bar and Jer noticed, didnt even wait for me to come up with an excuse, just took my drink from me and DRAGGED me onto the floor, I tried to pry his fingers off my wrist with no luck. "I know you can dance to this, now dance dammit!" LOL When we got back to the bar the trucker had disappeared. I started talking to these people right next to the trucker (they had karaoke too that night and the books were in front of this one lady). So that's how we met Mara from Belguim, Wolfgang from germany and Gabriel from Mexico. These people were all fairly attractive in their own way, and all very rich. I'm not sure why they were there at the Roost on a wednesday, nor did we figure out how they all knew each other. My best guess was that they were a family of vampires. Anyway by the end of the night we were seriously blitzed at the strip club, me speaking french to all three of them, with German and Spanish for replies, Mara could speak all the languages better than I could. At one point I said to Wolfgang "All the German I know I learned from Hitler!" which is only partly true, I learned some from the liner notes to the band Rammstein too. And also from some of the videogames, that one Scott would play 24/7 and the germans would be yelling shit. Anyway I could mostly understand what he was saying in German, and I could fully understand the other 2. By the time we got to the strip club we were all seriously tanked. Jerico was warned AT THE DOOR that they werent serving him anymore and to keep his hands off the girls. He looked back at me and was like "oh SURRRE!" and I was laughing cuz they definitely had the wrong guy. I didnt get the warning this time! Our international playboy vampire friends bought all the drinks there. Then somewhere along the line the Mexican (he wasnt Mexican-mexican, he was a white guy, Spanish-mexican aka he owned Mexico) well that guy gets it in his head to start trying to screw me or something. The guys hands were naughty to say the least. Im pretty sure he bought me two drinks not only to get me EVEN MORE liquored up but also so that I wouldnt have a free hand to swat his away. I dont know what Jerico was doin when all this was goin on but eventually I got to the bathroom with Erin and she talked to Gary and Gary found Jerico and Jerico had a talk with the Mexican. We wanted to be cool about it, these people had spent a couple hundred on us already and who knew what else was goin on, we didnt want to lose our meal ticket! I half-heartedly swatted his hand away a couple times, when it got VERY naughty. I was enjoying the attention, I REALLY like being hot, it's everything I thought it would be (boys doing what I say!). Besides, the guy was mega-rich, cute face and had quite the rippled abs underneath his sweater. Under different circumstances things would have been CRAZY. So... ANYWAY I got Jerico his bday lapdance from Zooey, our fave chick. This was at last call. Then we escorted the vamps back to their cars at the Roost. Mara and I kissed and then I talked her into showing me her tits (she was standing where Jerico could see too). She was the quietest of the bunch, but the hottest & smartest too. She picked on my shitty french-canadian accent. We didnt bother exchanging emails or whatevers, those things mean well but no one ever writes.

After dropping off PF and Erin, we went to Jerico's sister's house cuz his mom was house/dog sitting for them and had Cassidy there for the night. I dont remember as much as I woulda liked to about this part (and in general one of the goals of cutting back on drinking n drugging is cuz jer and I finally want to start remembering life again) but Jer says that I pretty much shoved him down on the couch and fucked the living shit out of him. Not that he doesnt get rough too (I told you he's perfect). I remember still having on my trenchcoat dress and my bra, riding him face to face at first, then spinning around reverse cowgirl style -my new fave position-, he had me in a chokehold for most of it and that was really hot, then I remember being SHOVED to the floor right in front of where we were on the couch, he had the buttons undone on the trench dress so in one move he shoved me to my knees AND got the dress off me, it happened really fast and was a great move, he was on me in an instant. After a while we managed to gather up our clothes and find the guest bedroom. About 9am his mom wakes us up saying she has to run her mother for a doc appt, Cass is awake, changed and eating bfast, watching tv. She left and Jer hadnt totally woke up tho I was, cuz I wasnt sure what the house was like or their dog, to be leavin Cass out there alone. I checked on her and went back to bed to wake Jerico up. Now I usually talk all this sex stuff in the handwritten journal, in there I've mentioned how sex the first few times was kinda crappy. We were drunk all the time and also both he and I have trust issues. We can fuck the shit out of a stranger with no problem, as long as we never have to see that person again... but if we CARE about that person, then we get nervous, and we hold back (dont want them to think you're too slutty right away lol), so anyway sex is fantastic right now between us, but it didnt start out that way. This is moreso concerning Jerico, seein I'm a heartless wench and also men are under more pressure than women during sex, he doesnt perform well until his heart's in the game. When he told me he loved me sex got better, after we talked about moving in togther it got better again, a couple nights ago he said he wanted this to be forever and I said that would be nice, that I thought I had forever once before and didnt think I'd ever have another forever-relationship, same with he and his high school sweetheart that he stayed with for 8 years- he thought that was gonna be forever... after that talk the lovemaking was the best so far. But on this morning, after his birthday, this was the first time I got his "full potential". I wasnt planning on waking him up for sex but then I accidently (I swear it was an accidnet!) brushed up against his cock and was like "that wasnt his hip bone was it?" and within 10 seconds I was undressed and attacking his HUGE morning wood. It pretty much gets that big every time now. Word. and subject change....

I got my tax refund Saturday. I did a To Do list at work on sunday night. It went like this "Monday Morning cash check, Monday afternoon call about apartments, Tuesday look at apartments, Wednesday sign lease, Thursday-Sunday look at cars, Monday 3/3 put in 1 week notice at work, get car on the road, Tues-Friday move into apt, do job apps etc, Monday & week of 3/10 go on job interviews, start working somewhere by 03/17" And so far we're on track. I put down first and last mos rent on a very nice, BIG 3 bedroom across the street from here. Having such short notice and all there werent many choices. Neither of us wanted to live in a complex, it cant be far from here etc so that's why I initially looked at the place, but it turned out nicer and cheaper than I thought it would be.

k Cass is awake, will finish talking abotu the apt. I got pics but my gold membership ran out a few days ago, will get them up after I renew.

Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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