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Didnt you meet Maddi before? I always thought she'd be very cool. Ill always be jealous of her too tho. how long you been in europe? It looks like youre having a lot of fun. Im sure it'll be better whenever I go back.

Ive been really sick all summer. At first they said it was probably kidney cancer but when I FINALLY was able to get approval for the right tests it showed that I have a birth defect with my kidneys. They may need to remove the right kidney, and they gave me a pamphlet on dialysis at the last appointment so Im not in the clear yet. I went ahead and quit drinking last week cuz I know that's what theyre gonna tell me at the next appointment.

Things have been up and down all summer. Been livin it up cuz of the maybe-cancer. Done a lot of rock climbing and hiking (pics here on myspace). Quit one job, too much stress, got a cake job at mcdonalds for only a little less pay, and I can walk so Im saving a ton in gas... work overnites so I dont lose time with Cassidy, just lose out on sleep. MAYBE 3 hours a day then play catch up on a day off. I slept 12 hours today, baby girl went to the state fair with my cousin. Cass turns 3 in a few weeks. It'll be 2 years since weight loss surg and Ive lost almost 200 pounds. Its weird being decent looking, I get flirted with just about all the time. My taste in men hasnt improved as well as my looks have, it's getting to be a major problem right now.

I have a sorta boyfriend named Jerico. We lived together from Feb to Jun, tho we broke up in May, moved into separate rooms, had roommates move in, Jer moved out, I got a new bf and was painting/roofing his sisters house with him and we stayed there a few weeks while everybody else got us all evicted from the house, then I broke up with the new bf and moved in with my mom, started sleeping with Jer again. We decided fuck budz was cool, but then we were together 4 nights a week and he's callin me every day... then we decided to stop screwin and just be friends but then we started screwin again... i think we're giving just fuck buddies one more chance before we just call it quits on both. I'd be willing to commit again but I dont think he would. I've never been in this situation before, it's just as funny as it is painful. He and I have this whole "business venture" together and we're amazing partners this way, so Im not sure what to do.

running late for work so i gotta cut this short. who knew mcdonalds would be so fun. I fuck off all night with cute gay boys, smoke weed w my supers and sell to the customers... theyre already asking me about management "do i gotta take a piss test?" "NEVER" "dude sign me up" I already make more than I did at the last nursing home I did CNA work for.

anyway I hope you keep having fun in europe, stay away from those hostels lol.

Always remember to quit while you're ahead.

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